vxxen's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- BUSH, GET YO' SHIT AND GET THE FUCK OUT! :) yesterday my father was cooking dinner and burned something and gave me asthma. now in sittin here on the asthma machine cuz i was breathing it in all night and shit. i was pissed off as shit all day, but when i got on the machine he was looking over at me all upset and shit and i felt bad for being too angry. then he said he was sorry and shit and i forgave him. my mom and sister are going to DC tomorrow to g o see OBAMA! lol im staying home cuz i cant walk all those miles and stand for too long. they have to wake u at 245-3:00 and get ont he bus by 4am to get there by 8am ill stil be sleeping. but im gonna wake up at1030 to clean the house a little before i go see obama on CNN lmao. im so excite im gonna tape it just in case i see my mom and sis. the other day i called up mac to see if he wanted to go out he was liek ehhhhh. lol my secret trick is to offer to pay lol he was like ehhhh but im sick and i really wanted to go home and sleep i told him to go home and sleep ill see him next week . but it was really weird cuz at the precise moment i thought, "Hmm, i really want a boyfriend. not for messing around or whatever but to just be attracted to someone thats attracted to you and WANTS a relationship with you. that enjoys the company of each other." dont get me wrong i enjoy mac's company but im always thinking i cant do this cuz he might think i wanna sleep with him. i can do that cuz he thinks i wanna do something sexual with him. i cant say this, i cant say that. its like a constant battle. im not a ho-bag and i cant keep my dirty comments to myself ALL the time. im hanging with guys and im not afraid of saying something culgar cuz im not uncomfortable when they say it. grrr i cant explain it. i wanna be able to just get-away with certain things and not have it be taken the wrong way...does that make any sense AT ALL!?ah, fuck it. but i was proud of myself for not thinking about carlos when i thought about the whole boyfriend thing. fuck him. thats right i said it. damn dominican thats right i said that too! lmao anyway thats all i have to say cuz the medicine is making me sleepy and shaky
5:22 p.m. - January 19, 2009 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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