vxxen's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- If only he still lived here... I had a really good time last. night. I went out with Mac and got buzzed/drunk I had 3 cosmos and was slurring lol but i was like aw shit im slurring, fuck it. we played pool and danced a little. it was so funny. then richie came to get me from outside of my house. Mac was waiting with me. it was pretty cool. I got in Richie's car and we were talking about our lives and how it changed. lol we stopped at CVS to get protection and it felt like i was in his car for 80 hours. then we get to his house and im maaad wobbly. which is no surprise cuz I'm wobbly sober lol I could really see myself with Richie. I know I shouldnt but I was in love with him in high school. he's so hot. He plays in a band down in FL. all night, I called him a rockstar lol he liked that. lol he got long hair now so as soon as i was able, i took the rubber band out of it and started messing it up and he got all mad cuz he knew it would get in the way of us fooling around. i didnt care. i do what i want. **This is gonna sound very expletive and you're lucky that I'm using the correct terms. but i dont care, its my diary lol** I have a scar on my left breast where they did the biopsy to see if i had cancer or not. He looked at it, but asked me about it after. He said, "That scar on your breast?? Thats new?"
"Yeah. They wanted to see if I had cancer or not."
"Did you?"
"No."
"Thats good you're alive." Ha! His...way with words and shit. is only part of the charm, trust me lol
He then said that I was the best person that ever gave him fellatio. (and he said some shit like, 'I'm gonna miss that. and then *I* said like, 'Well, it's too bad I can't do that shit over the phone' lol "he laughed and said, 'Yeah, you'd be the best then.') and the only one where he climaxed from it. He said that I was spoiling him. because he wanted to please me too, but i was aggressive and wanted to do it. He wanted it more than i did. I really don't miss sex. But if i'm in a relationship or something, id want it all the time. but im not gonna go out looking for it or whatever. thats just me. He leaves Sunday night, tho. I'm gonna miss him. He said that he's gonna visit again and come see me. That made me smile. then that's when he gave me a hug and a kiss. and held the hug longer than supposed to be. He even rubbed my back... does that mean anything or did I....fall?? It was all love on my side, and all good comradeship and friendship on hers. When we parted she was a free woman, but I could never again be a free man. Look how i went out . im sexy lol 1:32 p.m. - May 08, 2009 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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