vxxen's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- i'm an asshole i'm an asshole. i talked to carlos today..im such an asshole. he was talking to me and it felt a little bit like old times but i knew better. it was fun to joke and make fun of him. and i asked him when is going to visit me (even though i know hes not) the excuses and the stuttering was hilarious to me. i remember a time when i would get sad and mad about it. but now, i just realize what a pathetic fuck he is. he really is sad. when i think about it, i realize he's bored with his life. his family dont show love to him like i showed him love, and they are selfish little shits who only think about themselves. they dont celebrate holidays (they're dominican) and no gifts for birthdays. how can one live like that. his friends dont hang out with him. even if ur poor (which they are. and i aint knocking it cuz i remember a time when i went to bed hungry when i was living on my own a while back. god is that a story but i digress) u can give a little something for one's birthday. i used to celebrate birthdays and other american holidays with him. and i never got shit. once or twice but after that. zip, zilch, nada. and i knew that it wasnt ever going to change. and god forbid i would ever marry him. it would be like that. and godforbid i would have kids it would be worse. so, in honor of my intelligence and my strength, im doing a survey lmao i love it. oh and im going out with mac tomorrow. its kinda fucked up though, cuz i brought mac something for christmas and i asked him about it. i said, "Mac, what u gettin me for christmas?" he said, " Uh, uh im spending $2,000 on a tv for my family so im not gonna--" " are you serious? ok. im taking yours back then." i dont give a shit. ill fucken take it back. id keep it if it was something that i wanted. but i dont want that shit ( i brought him a plush sheep. his mom used to give him a sheep every year for his birthday and shit. and i thought it would be nice for him to get one. she stopped doing it a while back so i thought it would be nice to give to him. hes been driving my crippled-ass around to take me out and have a good time so i figure i thank him) ...im too fucken nice. i need to be a bitch from now on. thats my new years resolution. I"MA BE A BITCH! lmao What would you do if? You won the lottery: You got invited to be on a reality TV show: You caught a friend stealing from you: You witnessed a murder: A random stranger offered you candy: MySpace and Facebook closed: A genie granted you one wish: You lost your favorite possession: You found 10 dollars on the ground: Your date throws up on you: Someone cut off a chunk of your hair: Your favorite celebrity comes to visit you: You were stranded on an island with nothing but the ability to make one phone call:
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