vxxen's Diaryland Diary

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Help from where you least expect it :)

"i would rather have someone i could kiss in the moring goodbye when i leave for work an kiss when i come home rather then sex" Georgie is soooo sweet. Andre is still on my mind. i slept with him yesterday. best. sex. evVA! lol he took the blue pill. almost killed him. he had a hard-on for 3 hours. he got pale, numbing in the hands, tingling . . but did i mention the Best. SEx. EVA! lol awesomeness! exceot the whole 'he coulda died' thing. lol . . i've been talking to georgie and he keeps my mind off of andre. or at least some of the time. i can only take him for som many hours (andre) before the feelings wash up again. ugh, it sucks. i should be over him by now and the only reason i'm not is because i keep seeing him... thinking about him. karen said it's normal but. . he's ANNOYING! lol i tkae 3 steps forward 10 steps back. meanwhile, back at the ranch, this nigga sleeps at night. his life pretty much sucks. he needs me more than i need him, i have friends, i'm happy i got school. . . pl actually like me. he's always thinking that the world is against him and it prob is. but dont be angry about it. do something about it. dont sleep for 18 hours a day and think that something is supposed to happen overnight. ::sighs:: i tried so hard to help him, but god says tht he helps those that only help themselves. :/

�Watching you walk out of my life does not make me bitter or cynical about love. But rather makes me realize that if I wanted so much to be with the wrong person how beautiful it will be when the right one comes along.�