vxxen's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- torn ahhh! its a nessa! lollol hey girl a lot of shit has been goin down for real!!!! ok let me start from the beginning... i was thinkin about buyin a "stop snitching" belt and wear it around talia and show it off lol lol lmfao but ill get it next week aha hah ahh, im bad and 2 i kinda sorta got laid last friday but 2 different niggas lol lol one was 28 (my usual lay his name is james but his real name is Jesse Bo nigga think im stupid.. he can think that cuz the penis is OH, SO HEAVENLY!!! LMFAO) and the other is mac, one of KB's friends... yeah i kno i know but im secretly in love with him and... we talked.(well i made him talk cuz he was giving me the run around ok, so i threathen thim with bodily harm while driving so what?) ;-) and i asked him what are ae and i also asked him are we in a relationshop and he told me tht he's not good with relationships and then i blurted out"BULLSHIT!" ... then i saw him all hurt then i apologized and then i dropped it we had sex a little while after that (All i got ta say about the sex is ... HOT FUCKEN DAMN!!!! he can go and go make me tired FOR REAl LMFAO!! he'll some right, and im just catchin my breath... i swear nessa, no joke i swear on my mommas' fried chicken((and you know how i feel about ma mommas fried chicken)) 5 seconds he'll look at me and say,"ready?" "Ready for what?" "you know.""noo i dont know..o no (lol) for real?" he'll nod get the fuck ouuta here nigga!! then i'll ROLL THE FUCK OVER LIKE A MAN, NESSA!!! LMFAO!! I SWEAR! but then ill turn over and by this time he's layin on his side lookin at me, and nessa,, i have never layed with a guy like i do with him, it so relaxing and just so intimate i mean i had that but not like this nessa this is how you must feel with your boo we started talk and shit and i felt so in love so at peace but then we had to leave cuz his brother was comin home soon and they share a room so we went downstairs and we were still talkin and he talks to me like im important i mean i know im important and shit, cuz goddamn, im Kamile,but he'll ask me questions about my perfession (cook) and whats healthy i swear nessa... :sighs: so then we were layin on the leather couch and this couch is HUGE! huge enough to have sex on it the very first time we met.. :-D and we just.. fell asleep talkin... in each others arms till like 245 in the morning. we talked about almost everything. our bad relationships, even thought i aint suppose to do taht number 15 in the pimpette's handbook lol but i only see himm once a week cuz he works and shit and plus i guess thats when he wants sex lol sheet that when i want sex too LOL!!!! but then i gogt more news... this kid named justin gloia (nicole and i think christine knows him) he used to work in shop rite.. long story short, we used to see wach other and then we stopped cuz we both liked each other but we were too afraid of gettin hurt and no not 45 mintues from when i started writing this he told me taht he likes me more as a friend and if i dont like him morethan just friends then we cant hang out nessa... i was like thi,, literally :-O LOL! cuz i was IN FRICKIN LOE WITH THIS KIDD!! but he's in rehab for drugs that he wont tell me but i thinks its coke, and prescription pills. for reall cuz one day while he was high, he shot himself in the hand with an illegal guna and could face up to 7 years in prison cuz he h as a record. i dont want him to go to jail, nessa ::sighs:: but he aint gettin out til septembet and the program is literally 15 drive from my house not even in port richmnond, but he cant get visits, nor calls just letters and cigarrettes which i told him i would buy for him, you know?::Heavy sigh: i really don know what to do chick, and on top of that i kinda forgot (you know forgive or forget) ii chose to forget about nicole cuz she's craxy but i will never forget ... ok so i forgive but not forget that she used me for money KNOWING that i was working 2 jobs and shit (whic by thw way im quittin one of them cuz i fucken hate it) and put her man in front of her best frined (allegely) so i dont call her dont pick up her calls i dont give a fuck no more and when i dont give a fuck you know i dont give a fuck nessa and thts beein reall cuz my parents cant stand her and dont want me haning out with her and shit so then im thinkin why should i mess up my family live for that shick , you know? i m ean i feel bad cuz this chick helped me thru so much shit but im doing good nwo in my family im happy and just to upset my parents for her from them nuh-uh aint happenin so... i thinkim done but i like them both but i like mac more o by the way if you wanna see mac you gotta go to stina's page and click on the guy named freshhhhhh and then go to his page and click on the pic that says um,,,, this boy is on something ... or some shit like that lol ok girl that all the shit that i know and remembere and cuz my fingersd hurt lol tell me what you think lol love always KaMILE 8:31 p.m. - May 14, 2006 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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