vxxen's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Here we go, Mac you know these past couple of days ive been thinking about my time i had with carlos and my relationship i had with mac about 3-4 years ago. i lost count but ima check it hold up.... since january 2006. 3 years of being friends and lovers. and i just re-read my entry from Jan. 5, 2006. Wow. its all that i can say. like two lions i heat! shit! well.... now all i can say is that every time me and Mac drink we make out. last time i made out was freakin' tuesday. me and mac went to TGIFriday's to go eat and 2 sangrias for me and 2 samuel adams for him and we're making out in the parking lot like a bunch of teenagers. yes. i know, i know im repeating the story but the whole repeating of the story is to say that i have no sex life and miss it. lol i mean i didnt miss my non-existent sex life until all those feelings that i missed came back with the physical contact with mac. Huh? it kinda made sense to me after i read that 3x. (lol) and i know that this is dangerous grounds that i am on right now. and i told him that i said,... "Mac, sometimes i feel whenever we make out that i want to do more with you. and i know in my head that i cant because if i do i'll start to really like you again. and i know how you. you like to hang out with different girls and stuff. and its ok cuz thats what makes you, you. so you see no matter how many times i say i want it. its your job to say no" LMFAO it sounded funny when i thought it too lol we both laughed and all and then he said that he understood and that yes, i did know him and that i was very aware of what he wants. then i said, "Nigga you dont know what you want." he shook he head to the side as if to say, "Well, you got me there." then he dropped me off. i think that maybe im obsessing over this and i dont want to go thru the whole mac thing again but on the other hand i miss kissing and stuff but i dont think im ready for the "after-feelings" i feel after i make out with him. sheesh imagine if i slept with him lol id be boned.. no pun intended lol but i think ill only do it when im buzzed and if he knew that he'd try to get me buzzed all the freakin time. lol damn pervert... i love it! lol dueces
A sex symbol becomes a thing.... I just hate to be a thing. -Marilyn Monroe, 12:02 a.m. - January 24, 2009 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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