vxxen's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- i did it again i am completely, and utterly stupid!!! why am i sitting here on the floor, on my laptop, tryin to remember carlos's home phone number because i forgot what his house number is cuz im plannin and schemin ( i hate the word scheming. it sounds like im in a tunnel underground with a spoon tryin to dig thru the cement wall with spoon to get to the bank on the other side. ) to see carlos even afterwhat had happened yesterday??????? i realize that im crazy and that maybe the sex is taht good but is it worth it for all the heart ache and grumpiness after??? weellll i think that him and i cant ever be together cuz of what happened and i cant let it go ...which all the while makes angry sex fun lol but goddamnit..1 why did he have to be such an asshole...? 10:49 p.m. - June 24, 2008 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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