vxxen's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- jason and steve and school, oh my! Maybe it's me and my lack of spironolactone and birth control medicine to help with my hormonal ass and my Polycyctic Ovary Syndrome (PCOS) but I'm over thinking things again .and for NOo0o0o0o0 reason. we keep talking about having a life together and moving in and shit eventually . I'm going to school and he's still in modells. he actually just got a promotion but doesn't make enough money to live on his own. I kinda, sorta slept with Steve last week (I KNOW, I KNOW!) and I don't feel bad about it. which is bad in itself. I think it was my closure . I think about it but I don't regret it. I try not to go thru life regretting. the only thing n life that I regret is listening to my mother about the Environmental police department because she already paid for vacation and I don't wanna think or talk about it. I'm going to continue in school and keep it moving. I think I'm just unhappy. I'm unhappy at home. I cook and clean and do shit around the house and still get ragged and nagged on for no fucken reason. I walked in the house the other day with Wendy's and a medium soda (even though it looked like a large) and my mother was ragging on me and shit the WHOLE time I was eating like really? I don't wanna hear that shit. my stomach was in knots. about how just because Jason can eat the food he wants, and he's big, doesn't mean I can and I'm gonna get diabetes and can't drink soda and I never drink soda whats gotten into you. . . 11:47 p.m. - March 05, 2018 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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